On Darin you better read this because I titled it just for you: This Beautiful Mess

I miss winter. Don't get me wrong I do love Spring, my tree is BEAutiful and the weather is oh so nice, but by the circle of life, Spring is also a time of change. Change, there has been quite a lot of that going on and with my OCD tendencies, I'm not especially good with change. This week has been pretty emotionally draining for me, I've pretty much been perpetually in tears. But I've now decided that I've been making things a lot more complicated than they need to be. it's really quite simple see I have zero control over any of it, so therefore I have to learn vulnerability... to trust, to lean, to allow God to continuing teaching me even through the hard times. Some of the change makes me sad, even though it is the right thing, so basically I don't know how I'm supposed to be feeling right now. However, despite the fact that I'm a COMPLETE MESS, I've decided to just praise God through it. I think He really loves that. So, in the next few days I'll probably be found either 1) crying my eyes out for no apparent reason or 2) running and dancing and singing and praising in the backyard under the sun with the dandelions. Yes you don't have to tell me, I know it doesn't make sense. God is using these hard times when I've slowed down, stopped, and looked around to really really romance my heart and hold my hand through all of it. He wants me to let Him be there for me. I think that 's really great. I could go on and on about the ways God has made the difficult moments so beautiful, (one example being an entire backyard full of white dandelions). So, I'm going to focus on joy, because without joy what do you have?? And as Lydia reminded me this morning: "Star people do not shed tears, but light."

Here I sigh with relief that God loves us beautiful messes (I actually know quite a few right now).

Sungirl

On lately

Hello dear ones, I'm sure you missed me. Well, maybe not since no one commented on my last post, that's perfectly okay though. I decided not to let my blog fizzle out, so I'm updating today. Let's see what's been going on in my life...

Hmmm... the Wednesday before Spring Break I gave my testimony for our church worship night with the youth. Being able to do that was an incredible blessing. The night focused in on how we are, always have been, and always will be God's beloved (the joy I get from knowing that, OH MY GOODNESS!!). Anyway, the whole thing was really cool, I think the best part was when I shared my Princess story that I posted a long time ago, people got it and that made me really excited.

Spring is here, (mostly) and I am overjoyed!!! The Lindsey Memorial Garden is in bloom, with little pink flowers on my weeping cherry tree and buds on the tulip plants. It is soooooo beautiful and it's making me so excited!!! I love love love spring, everything is green and new and there's a lot of other cliche statements that I could make about it, but just so you know, I love it.

A really major change is going to be happening in my life soon, that is Hannah and Jonathan (my pretend parents) are leaving in two weeks for their year long mission experience. I am going to miss the two of them SO MUCH. So, yes I've been pretty much an idiot to get so close to them, ha ha, but now I just adore them and will be so so so so so sad when they leave. Life will go on however ,I am building up a reservoir of good memories to have once they're gone.

I'm also very excited about the Florida trip this summer. No not really excited, more ecstatic!! I can't wait. It's going to be so nice to just get away from everything to focus on what God wants for my youth group, and to focus on loving others and growing with them. I am also curious to see how God will work in my life while we're there and in the lives of everyone else. I'm still growing growing growing everyday and it is awesome!! This week I am studying in Philippians and am curious to see where I'm led with that. No one's really missed much, my days are still filled with joy and peace and best of all love because "all you need is love" (The Beatles).

So, I wish you all amazing days, weeks, and months. And remember, "you're never fully dressed without a smile." Hmmm, I guess that means some of you are naked... AWKWARD!!!
Bye.