It has certainly been awhile. I really am not sure what to write about. Well, how about I tell about me weekend last weekend. Here we go. I have wanted to go on a Chrysalis weekend since I was very young and saw all the teenagers in my mom and dad's group at Epworth go and come back so amazed and excited. I went in expecting the weekend to be a time of growth in Christ and fellowship with other strong believers. This was not really the case. It was a fun weekend; it was good to get out of the house for a while, however it was not at all what I was expecting. I think the weekend was especially hard for me just because I'm kind of shy around people I don't know, it's hard for me to open up. Once I know you, forget the shy part, I'll talk you're ear off, but I just have a really hard time with the whole "getting to know" people business. I only knew a couple of people there and (I'm going to say this without sounding hateful or prideful) I felt that I was one of the few young people there that were truly strong in their faith. We had talks about how Jesus loves us, how He wants a relationship with us, and how He can transform our lives. This transformation process has been my life for about two years now. They were good talks and it was cool to see how many people were allowing God to move them for the first time. However, most of the time, I kept thinking (selfishly) that I wished there could be a retreat for me. It wasn't until I got home that I realized hello, duh--I don't need a retreat, because what? God is growing me everyday at home. The realization of this made me feel a lot better.
One part of the weekend that was pretty awesome was the agape letters. If there had been any doubt that my love language was 'words of affirmation,' there's not anymore. Reading all those encouraging words was so neat! That hour that I sat on a hill reading all those notes, (bawling like a baby of course, because that's just what I do), was one of the times that I've felt God's love through other people the strongest.
Another way God has been really moving in my life lately, has been during our quiet time. Since Sunday when I told Darin that I wanted to give my testimony at church sometime, God has been filling my mind with the exact right words. I mean, it's my story so it's not like I need to memorize anything, but I feel that God wants me to focus (in my talk) less on my past like I had planned on doing, and more on our story and the love and joy that I have found in Him. At first, I said to Darin that I wasn't sure how soon I wanted to do this, but since I've prayed more about it, I can't wait!! I'm completely excited!
Okay, I'm pretty much done know, but PRAISE GOD for the snow!!!!!! I just love it. And I thought you all would like to know that last night (Thursday) I prayed hard that we wouldn't have school today, and we didn't, so your welcome to some of you. Well, have an absolutely positively fantastic day!!
